i wanted to drown
but i couldn’t
i couldn’t
i couldn’t
i couldn’t
find myself
to sink once
sliced upon
the serrated
edge
of your soul.

i wanted to fall
but i wouldn’t
i wouldn’t
i wouldn’t
i wouldn’t
hear my heart
beat resounded
in the cacophony of
your broken chords.

i wanted to sink
but i shouldn’t
i shouldn’t
i shouldn’t
i shouldn’t
listen to the voices
that tell me to pass
slow and silent
into the night.